It is midterm time here on BYU-IDAHO, and life is CRAZY!
Lizzy is getting married in 4 days, and it is so cool!
Besides that, life has had its up and downs, but this semester has been a test from the start. I came up and was so ready to start a new year. That in and of itself it such a story I don't think I have time to begin telling it! It didn't start the way I had intended it to, I didn't get to spend the time I wanted to with my mom, and when she left me in Rexburg I had a horrible feeling of guilt, she had just lost her dog, that had been her shadow for almost 14 years and just lost her father who she was a daddy's girl to the fullest. I know it has been difficult for her and I know it was difficult for her to leave me here, when she just wanted to be able to keep everything she loves as close to her as possible.
I love and miss my sweet Cookie girl, looking at pictures of her is still difficult, talking about her in relation to our new puppy is a little bit easier, but I still get a pang of hurt in my heart.
More I miss my grandpa, when we were up in Utah for his funeral, it was all surreal. It didn't feel real, because I didn't want it to be, I wasn't ready to let the hurt in and realize I can never speak to him in a physical sense again. I know he is watching over me and that is a great comfort with all the wisdom he possesses. But I miss him, I am grateful for the time I got to spend with him and that I had him for the 21 years that I did. It makes me fear for my other grandparents that much more though. I fear for my step-grandma, and my grandma as well as my father's parents, they could all be gone in an instant, and will one day. Thank goodness for the gospel and the promise of eternal families.
