I understand and have come to accept that I am a dramatic person. I have and still continue to occasionally blow things out of proportion. But I swear my life is made up of many instances of stink and every blue moon a shining glorious great moment, which is normally ruined by other circumstances of more stink.
When friends ask me about upcoming events and I finish my excitement with "but I'm sure something will change and it will all come crashing down" they give me funny looks, and when I explain to them that I live by Murphy's Law they laugh and shrug it off. What they don't understand is, I'm completely serious. I have learned that anything that can, will go wrong, and normally in the worst way.
I don't want to seem like I am not grateful for the blessings I do have in my life, they are countless, and it is easier to see everything that has gone wrong. I am currently able to attend church every week and able to attend a class I have wanted to be able to take my entire life at church. Along with that class I am hoping to be able to receive something I have also waited my entire life to do, but I'm also not holding out too much hope to be honest, because things always go wrong. I don't get to do things I want to do, ever so when this is another thing that doesn't work out.... I may actually need to go see a therapist.
Anyway, whatever, I'm upset, its been a long year already....
