Five weeks is all i have left before i leave normal college life and do an internship of sorts, student teaching in Nampa, Idaho.
At times it still scares the living day lights out of me - but then i realize i have been given all the tools to succeed and my professors believe in me. I do need to work my confidence up a bit, but i know these things and i know i can do a good job. Anything i start that is new and a huge change scares me and gives me crazy anxiety - it runs in the family what can i say- and i am scared out of my mind but one thing helps.
Reading the scriptures everyday, saying my prayers (and not falling asleep in the middle of them - still working on that one sometimes, school really takes a lot out of ya seriously) and doing my best to be my best. At times it seems like the world is caving in on me, nothing goes right - and everything i planned gets turned down, at times i feel like nothing but then i have to realize....
I may feel like nothing in the world - but I am everything to the One who created it.
And with His help I will get through everything. The atonement is not just for sin - it is for hurt, and anxiety, and for when we feel like nothing in the world. It is to let us know there is one man who knows EXACTLY how we feel and is only a prayer away, if we only have faith.
